I don't know what to say, everything sucks....

With my friends I feel out of place, neglected, like I dont belong... I wonder, if I left would they feel better or worse? I want to leave, even if they don't want me gone, they would get over it, its not such a big deal.... but I cant leave, I don't belong anywhere else... staying is my only option..

I care about my friends, more than anything in the world... but I am almost certain they dont give a shit... Half of them might... I dont know....

Sometimes I just wish a car would hit me and put me out for a while.... at least id know then who cared... I already have a good idea of who does and who does not.

So I have decided to, at least try to keep to myself, and only speak when addressed or when I have something important to say... lets see how that turns out.

I apologize if something does not make sense...